Where's the Pause button?

Sometimes it seems like life is just moving way too fast, and I never have enough time to do everything that needs to be done, let alone the extra things I want to do.

And, I look at our baby each day, and how she changes and grows - so much in only (almost) 4 months, and I just want to bottle up each moment of her life, so I can go back and savor it again.

Today's sermon was on Marriage. They were ending the "Fireproof Weekend" - a weekend seminar focused around the Fireproof movie, and The Love Dare. Hubs and I just finished The Love Dare a couple of weeks ago, and are contemplating doing it again. We've decided rather than doing it for 40 days, we may take one dare per week, and do it for 40 weeks. It's an interesting thought, anyway.

Back to the sermon - it was on "The ABCs of Marriage". Love is Active (A), Benevolent(B), and Committed (C). It was a good reminder/refresher for me, because in the day to day hecticness of my life, I keep slipping. It's hard for me to be the wife I want to be every day. It's hard for me to be the mother I want to be every day. And, Lord knows, it is hard for me to be the Christian I want to be every day.

The sermon was just a reminder to me of my renewed commitment to my marriage, and to making things work, even when they're hard.

After the baby went down tonight, I sat in her room and read a little more in my book on being an encouraging wife. I know I wasn't great at this today. There were so many things that kept entering my mind - the garage he hasn't finished cleaning up for 4 months (despite telling me I'd be able to park in there again this weekend), the fact that I was left to clean the entire dinner mess myself, the fact that he can't settle the baby, so I have to stop what I am doing and tend to her, and then go back to cleaning...it was all building up and frustrating me. And I know, when I took the baby from him when she wouldn't stop crying, it made him feel bad. I was stressing, because I had things I wanted to do - and in that, I grabbed her away from him and made him feel inadequate at parenting her. And he's not. He needs to be commended for trying, when a lot of dads would have just given up and handed her over. Instead I was huffy with him.

So I sat and read a little tonight, and then cuddled on Hubs for awhile, which I knew he needed.

In looking through all the menu plans tonight (mine is posted here), I found a site about becoming a Proverbs 31 woman. I went and read Proverbs 31. I like it. SO that is my new project.

Like I needed another! LOL. The Lord just keeps placing more and more in front of me. And I want to take it all on. I just need about 12 more hours in the day to accomplish it!

And now I need to get to bed!

Good night, and God Bless.